I love listening to music when I write. I know it’s not everyone’s cup of tea, and I’ve met quite a few authors who prefer to write with no distractions, but music works for me. I find it creates a background emotion.
There are some songs I return to, time & time again, when my creativity needs a boost. These are songs I play (usually at full volume!) to remind myself that people – otherwise known as songwriters – can create something wonderful out of thin air (and musical talent, of course). When those songs come on the radio, they make me want to drop everything and write. And I can sense a future blog post forming about these favourite songs of mine.
There are other songs, though, that remind me of something I’m already working on. They help ease me back into that piece of writing, and keep me in the mood I’m trying to create. They’re the ones I play quietly in the background while I tap away on my laptop.
I had a playlist when I was writing ‘Not Thomas’. The most-played song on that list was Kate Bush’s ‘Moments of Pleasure’. In a previous post, What Wuthering Heights did for me – the confessions of a Kate Bush fan, I wrote about how playing that song helped me evoke the feelings of Tomos, the little boy who’s the central character in my book. I’d hear the music and feel the emotion, even if I hadn’t written about Tomos for months. But there were other songs that helped too. Here’s a few of them, thanks to YouTube.
Calon Lân, a well-loved Welsh hymn, was one of my starting points for ‘Not Thomas’. In fact, for quite some time the working title of ‘Not Thomas’ was ‘A Pure Heart’ – the English meaning of ‘calon lân’. The title eventually (and thankfully) got changed, after I listened to the advice of my writing group. (More about the failure of ‘A Pure Heart’ as a title in What’s in a Name?)
Tomos sings Calon Lân near the start of the book. He’s been taught the words by Nanno – his beloved ‘foster gran’. This version, by Cerys Matthews, is my favourite on YouTube. It’s the childlike quality of her voice that gets me every time.
In the case of Calon Lân, the lyrics loosely suited the theme of the book, particularly (and rather sadly) the opening line ‘I don’t ask for a life of luxury’, as Tomos is living in terrible poverty. But most of the songs I listened to didn’t have lyrics that connected to the subject matter. Instead I chose them for the way the music or the tone of the singer’s voice affected me. It was the emotion they conveyed that was important. Like this one.
I only have to hear the opening chords of ‘Talk to Me of Mendocino’ by Kate & Anna McGarrigle for my eyes to fill with tears. The music and their voices manage to convey, so beautifully, that sense of longing to be somewhere else. It’s perfect for Tomos, as he constantly longs to be back in the love and safety of his foster parents’ home.
And since I’ve already blogged about how important ‘Moments of Pleasure’ by Kate Bush was to me when I was writing ‘Not Thomas’, I ought to include one of her other songs that I played a lot too – ‘This Woman’s Work’. It’s an obvious choice, I suppose, when you think of songs that conjure up vulnerability (it was used by the NSPCC in one of their TV adverts). Again, the opening notes get me every time.
This last song, ‘Lost Boy’ by Ruth B, is a cheat. It came out in 2016 and I’d long finished writing ‘Not Thomas’ by then. I was in a dress shop (in lovely Llandeilo) when I first heard it playing on the shop’s radio. It stopped me in my tracks. I knew by this time that my book would be published and that Tomos’s story would see the light of day, something I’d thought for so many years would never happen. And the realisation that my novel was actually going to be published hit me. Had this song come out ten years before, I’d have been playing it as I wrote. It’s Tomos to a tee. I think it’s beautiful.
All these songs have something in common – lots of emotion. One comment from an early reader of ‘Not Thomas’ said it should be printed on plastic to save the paper from tears.
Maybe my playlist explains why.
Sara’s debut novel ‘Not Thomas’ is published by Honno Press and is available to pre-order in paperback and on Kindle now through Amazon.
The lady’s here. The lady with the big bag. She’s knocking on the front door. She’s knocking and knocking. I’m not opening the door. I’m not letting her in. I’m behind the black chair. I’m waiting for her to go away.